Recently I was talking to one of my good friends, one of the girls that moved to Arizona. We hadn’t talked in awhile so we kind of caught each other up on some things. We were talking about work and different things that are going on with my current job. She asked if I was looking for something else or planning on staying. I mentioned how my sister had said that she thinks if I stayed I could potentially get promoted in some way. So her next question was, do you want to move up there, is that your dream. That’s always a tough question to answer.
It’s something I’ve always struggled with in a way. I mean my longest and strongest dream has always been to be a writer. I want to get my own place, hole myself away and do nothing but write books. So I guess you could say I have a dream but that’s like my unrealistic, slash, way in the future dream. I don’t know what my current dream is. There are so many different ideas running through my head and I don’t know if any of them make sense, or are practical, or possible. And I told her as much.
I know one dream is to move out of my parents place, I hate free loading and I need my own space. I eventually want to move back to Grand Rapids and settle down there. I want to own my own business. I also want to travel. There are a lot of ideas up there, a lot of dreams. But it got me thinking, who’s to say you can’t have multiple dreams. Who says we can’t change are minds, or not completely know what we want and so we want everything. I mean obviously at some point we have to be still and pick something, if not for our sanity then at least for our loved one’s sanity, but I think there needs to be a time period where none of that matters.
My dad is always telling me now is the time to make mistakes and try new things because I’m young and don’t have a family or any real responsibilities. However, he still likes to chastise me whenever I’ve made a mistake he doesn’t approve of. it seems like lately I’ve seen a bunch of people I know going that route. Daring to do things because they have the freedom to do it right now. One of my friends is on like her third trip abroad, I don’t know how she pays for it. Another friend is going on a mission trip, while another is going to be in Africa for a year. Then there’s my two friends who moved to Arizona.
Who knows what I will wind up doing. I guess since it’s okay for me to be daring and do crazy things now while I have no responsibilities, it’s also okay to take time to try and figure out what exactly I’ll do with that time. Just so long as I don’t use up all the time thinking.